Breathe Into The Fear
So I was doing some reflecting today about teaching. I was cleaning up my Google Drive (after the 100th low storage alert! dammit!) and saw some sent lessons. And that’s when I fell down the rabbit hole until 3 AM. I started teaching probably when I was about 11 or 12, and got my first teaching job at 13. Cleaning up my Gmail inbox I read through e-mails from students about how much they’ve learned, how much I’ve helped them, and how grateful they are, and updates on their musical journeys. I don’t take this lightly - it’s super rewarding to be able to connect and help people in this way. Then today I got a FB message from the wonderful Deb Jones and was like OK I gotta write this post.
I think about how much I’ve grown as a musician, person, and teacher. It’s been so rewarding to see that lightbulb come on in someone, or see them grow each week in confidence and skill. It’s a safe place, these lessons, a creative place, a place with no limits. How many people just think “I’m not a singer” or “I’m not the creative type” or “I could never do that”. These are the same people that are facing their fears getting up on that stage and touching lives, or reporting back to me that they’ve just written their first song and put it up on Soundcloud. These words of self-doubt are not real, not the truth, and not just reserved for you. I get them as well (like, everyday) and am learning that they are just part of the path of doing something new, artistic and creative. Oh and in my experience, the voices in your head get louder when the thing you are doing is fulfilling and when it lights you up. The more fulfilling, the louder and more obnoxious they get.
I’m so proud of everyone whom I’ve worked with and who I currently work with. Not even for all the progress and energy and effort they put in, but just for showing up. Taking that step because there’s that little tug on their insides with a voice that some may see as selfish or frivolous or ludicrous or impractical or irresponsible. Something to shrug away because “why me?” No one thinks that their connection with music or passion they feel is special to them - but if you feel it, and love it…it is. You were meant to do this. You can do this.
It has been said that when you are ready, the teacher will appear. So (at the risk of sounding cheesy)…here I am. lol. If you’re feeling any sort of reaction to these words (a tingling, a stab in your chest, those butterflies in the belly, a gnawing, a knowing, hope, sometimes even a bit of anger or resentment) my advice would be to follow that feeling and explore further. Do you feel fear? If you take a deep breath in and out, does it change to excitement? Do you feel expansive (chest opens, you sit up taller, there’s a brightness in your eyes)? These are all things I experience when I’m on the right path to being the being I was born to be. The things we resist the most are the things that could change our lives forever. AND the things we are most nervous and clammy about are the things we REALLY care about.
I just wanted to put this out there to encourage artistic and creative exploration - I believe that the world would be a better place if we all followed our hearts and our passions more - left fear at the door and took the leap so we could learn to fly. When our dreams are starved, hidden away, put down, thrown out, we lose our connection to our deeper selves and each other - which in turn leads to things like depression, anxiety, and even hurting others or treating people badly. I want to help people express themselves and offer support and encouragement. You don’t have to do it alone. Music has saved my life in a million different ways, and continues to be there for me each and every day. I wake up with her in the morning, she sings me to sleep at night. She comforts me and understands me and loves me. (At least that’s how I feel now - tomorrow I’ll be frustrated and angry lol but it always comes back to passion and love. It’s complicated and messy and fun and exciting and fulfilling and I wouldn’t change a thing.)
I have different options/locations for coaching sessions (including Skype) depending on what you’re looking for, and am currently accepting new students. And I’m doing some holiday packages as well so please just message me for more info. We can work out what would be best for you. And please share this with anyone who you feel might want or need this message.
So much love. I encourage you to give yourself or a loved one this gift if it feels right. You deserve it. We all do.
And, thanks for taking the time to read this if you’ve gotten this far. You are amazing and it makes me so happy to know that I can write this and my words will fly through space and land somewhere your beautiful eyes can read them, and you can hear me and see me from my little corner of the universe.
All my love,