Day 20 and 21
Day 20 and Day 21 of Creativity Challenge.
Hi friends! So I kinda combined yesterday and today's challenge and ended up creating another track which I put on my Bandcamp page! Yay!
I wrote this first as a poem, and yesterday I decided to record it as a spoken word piece for the creativity challenge. Today, I listened back to it and could totally hear piano music behind it, so I let my fingers dance on the keys while I listened to the spoken word as today's creativity challenge, and had some fun with vocal effects, mixing and mastering. I'm excited to put this out - again pushing my comfort zone and doing something new and different (and exciting!). I also did some work on a photo I took of myself earlier in the challenge, and made it the artwork for the track. I think it looks pretty sweet! I've always wanted to do the black and white with certain colours just popping, and found an app that does it! So cool.
I was inspired to write the poem after a situation that happened at the hotel bar in San Fran just this past weekend. My guard was down, I was wide open, enjoying, laughing and hanging out with my friends, and suddenly was approached at the end of the night by a person who was completely drunk and belligerent, trying to pick a fight and saying really rude and obnoxious things. She was making racist comments and was so unaware that they were inappropriate and disrespectful. She would not stop, though we told her it wasn’t right, and refused to see how she was in the wrong. She just kept giggling. It felt like my insides were being burned, they were aching, raw, stabbing just being in her presence.
Learning about childhood trauma taught me that in situations like this, where there is injustice, it is common to feel triggered by your past, feel like the trauma is happening again, feeling the injustice of the trauma and abuse happening to you. So, I definitely felt triggered. I was raging, bubbling inside, shaking, but not able to physically or even verbally express myself. I didn't yell, I didn't hit her, yet I felt the adrenaline rushing and all I could do was burst into mad tears the second I got into the elevator. After getting back to my hotel room and taking a bath, and crying more and more, thinking about the world and how people don't even know how they are being, that they just say things without thinking, and probably haven't even been taught that this is wrong or could hurt other people. It's basically not treating everyone equally, and this is something I am very passionate about raising awareness about. I can't believe racism is still a thing. And, I will do what I can in this lifetime to raise awareness and help people realize that we are all one, we are all the same.
I pictured my chest cracking wide open as I sobbed, felt connected to everyone and everything, and told myself I was allowing the light to shine out of the cracks. I told myself instead of letting this get me down, I would use this fire of inspiration to do good for the world and humanity, and use it to drive me to serve the best I can. So...this poem was born, which I turned into a spoken word, and then later added piano to. Thank you for listening, and so much love to you.
Keep peace alive.
We can rise from a broken place,
Heal the scars that cover the world
All we need is love and forgiveness,
to let the past go, and not take hold
Free our minds so we don't act on
the humanly impulses we have learned
Or at least be able to recognize
if they cause someone to hurt
There's no need for war or violence,
We can all live in peace
It takes going deep down inside yourself,
Finding the place that makes you breathe
Sitting there just for a moment,
and another, and again
'Til you glow so bright and you feel the love,
The place from where you once came
The more you do this, find your centre,
Feel the ground beneath your toes
You'll see beauty in other people
You will see the way they glow
Suddenly we'll all be shining, comforting,
loving as we were meant to be
No more hatred, no more battle scars,
Yes, we can all be free.
People talk about Heaven like
it's some magical place so far away
Yet it's right here, it's right inside you,
Always with you every day
Take a second, close your eyes
and feel your belly fill with air
Follow the breath right out the way it came...
and soon you'll be right there
Soon you'll be right there
Soon you'll be right there